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Dear friend,
Hmm, where to begin. It'll be months before you read this but while it's on my mind, I'm going to spill it. You've been my best friend for so many years. You have nothing but positivity in your heart. I know sometimes it's hard for you to define what it is you love about yourself because well, no one ever told you what they love about you.. only what they hate. But, through all that shit, through all that pain and everything you've gone through.. You manage to uphold your positivity, and that IS what I love about you. That night we spent with all the "remember when's".. that was the best night of my life. I only wish I could've made things better, even though you said it couldn't have been any better because you spent it with the people you live for.
Bro, someday we're going to say, "Remember when you went away and tears filled your eyes and you looked at me with your glistened over face and said, 'I love you, and you are my brother forever.' and you let it out?.. Remember that, bro?" And you will smile like you always do and deny it, and we will laugh about things that have touched us both because we're too cool to get deep every now and then. It's like you tell me everyday, "You just can't judge a nigga by the things he's gone through."
This is to my best friend. You've changed me, bro, and to all the people you've touched, they know why. You're that great, man. I'm going to quote you now, and I'm going to let you know exactly how I feel.
"Everyday I say a prayer for my fallen homies, and spill the wine. The sound is overlapped by cheers. Everyday I think about you and everyday I hold back tears."
Someone once asked me if I feel alone. I said, "Yeah, the second I wake up and the second I fall asleep." For two seconds a day I feel completely alone. Seven hundred and thirty seconds a year, I feel completely alone. You figure that one out, bro. For now, I'm going to pour out my beer and I'm going to look up into the sky and pray that you're alright. I love you. Forever.
-Brandon.
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